Wow..I did not see that coming.

Well the last two days have been a real humdinger, you see i am trying to be nice of what I thought of the last two days right now. Here is what I really thought about it all F-ing BEEP WTF do you think saying BEEP which is a BEEPing lie about me would accomplish. Wow how BEEPING Still Beeping LOW of a human being can a BEEPing person be. As I like to say as the shock took me by surprise (Beep) me running backwards, maybe up a BEEPing hill, in Beeping snow, may be even BEEPING naked. No I am still ranting about being called a BEEPING BEEPING BEEPING person who is lower than the scum of the earth. I am so BEEPING mad about being lied about that you can really go BEEP yourself. Do you ever BEEPING think that I will be the kind of person who will forgive that BEEPING stunt. (calm voice now) almost want to say to you have really become so desperate in you life to need to mean something? To create a new lie and story to tell people, much like the lies you told about the last person who trusted your love. That you feel you can BEEPING drag another living human being down to your level. Well news for you….

(saying with conviction)

This is my YEAR

This is my time
This is my life
Those are my Kick ass friends

Nothing you can say
Not one little lie
None of your stories

Well ever change the truth
You don’t matter
You can’t control me
I’m not yours any longer

You lost the right to be called a friend
You lost the right to be called a lover
You lost more than you will ever gain

Go away!

(back to calm)

I am such a blessed person right now. I have some of the greatest friends a person could ever hope for. Ones when the earth shook took the place of Atlas and steadied my world. Showed me hope, helped design my dreams and started the ground works on a firm foundation. Which no longer includes you and that frustrates you.

This is my year!

I can’t stop what has begun. The power of true friendship is amazing. I once hid and doubted myself because of you. Now that there is no you, i don’t hide, doubts are fleeting. I never knew how many friends I really had in my life until you were gone. I simply love being hugged by so many friends. I love the fact that they call me to make sure I am doing well despite the adversity you have become. I love the fact that honesty once again is supreme, that I no longer have to second guess what is being said to me day to day. I love the fact that in 6.25 years all of my cells in my body will have been renewed. That means none of them…….and you. Yes this is my rant, yes you will never ever not in a million years be allowed to enjoy my company again. Face it your not relevant……. 

I was told yesterday by my attorneys PA to get mad. I did for a short time about as long as it took me to write this silly old rant. But then it hit me, my anger is mine, not yours and you are no longer worth the energy.

It is like old movies stars and old washed up singers (Billy Ray Cyrus). Who tell stories to say look at me look at me. But in the end those types of people are empty and void. In time even the old sages warn Beauty is Fleeting…… What you build here in this time will echo in the eternities.

So……

This is my year
These are the best friends a person could every want!

I will grow old

I will sit around with these friends and smile over the past
you will be nothing but dust in the wind

So sad too bad you’re gone