What many might not know is I live in a small piece of heaven. This is in more ways than one. The magic is in the people of this wonderful place where things happen a bit slower than others. The magic is in its people as well. Launceston Tasmania, Australia.
Something happened today in my travels. What many might not know is I appear to be losing my ability to walk. I get about a 1 km worth of pain free walking. But I refuse to allow this monster rob me of life and so I push that small distance as much as I can. But yesterday I went way to far over my limit. It really started to show when I was doing my shopping. I knew I should be using the online service but I love to choose the food I buy. I don’t trust my veggies being chosen by someone else as I have high standards (FRESH!).
But as I was saying I love this place. Someone who knows me more than I know them saw me struggling ton walk and stand offered me a ride home with my shopping. I was in no place to say no as I was about to collapse due to the pain that has set in. This wonderful person took the time and drove me home then brought in my shopping. They even told me to go inside as they did all the work bring in my shopping. As a kindness I gave them a copy of my latest book as a thank you. Though all he said was that he was paying it forward.
What the person did not know was that my heart was breaking as I knew the rest of my day was going to hell. I hide this level of heartbreak from my children as I don’t want to be “That parent”. As the night was closing in the pain levels became a monster in so much that all the pain meds could not hide or solve. I even got to the point laying in bed and the shaking began due to the level of pain. My reality began to sink in as I might have to look at going back to the doctor and talking it over again.
The magic of the kindness of the person who gave me a lift home was one of the best things for the day. Had he not been there I think my day would have been worse. I am going to try to force myself to go on a diet and might even look at reducing my weight by cutting back on a number of things that I enjoy (a tall glass of coke with ice).
I have even been told that I need to look at moving to a move friendly to those with a disability living arrangement. But I love my view from my front window and that is something that many places that are like that don’t have. but I am thinking that they might be right as I am very concerned about my future if not scared.