Life has not always been the best for me. Some of it I did to myself and others were just bad luck. Case in point when I was about 10 years old I woke up one night in the worst pain that I had ever felt in my life. For the last 41 years it has not stopped. I have only just learned to deal with the pain from it. I have seen a boat load of doctors and always been told it was just Growing pains or Chronic Pain but I was told once I was making it up. 2020 has been the worst year of my life in managing this pain and due to the lock down I was not able to visit my doctor.

This changed when our lockdown ended and the virus was gone (Thank you Tassie!). I was able to make an appointment so that I could seen. This wonderful man has me running through hoops just to figure out what is going on. If you know much about me I am not really one for letting things rest when I need to know what is going on. I have now been told that I have Arthritis and not the fun one at that (like there one that is). New meds to try to slow the progression and pain levels. While this might seem like a good thing I do not like taking drugs to mask the pain. My mum died of liver issues that turned into cancer. I worry about having the same problem so I try to avoid the unnecessary pain meds. I wish the government would hurry up and make cannabis legal here in Australia.

Though the good news is that I am leaning towards the idea that I might have Fibromyalgia which is also something my doctor is feeling that will be the end diagnosis. What does that mean well in simple terms Chronic pain with no mitigating factors. Which mean that my pain is not linked to broken bones or other fun junk like that. Sad thing is that where is once was just my knees the pain has begun to show up in my left shoulder and in my toes. At this point I really feel like my body hates me and always have. Add that on to being Transgender and Dyslexic I am turning into a doctor’s dream money bag, lol (Does this hurt….poke).