Time is fleeting, Hearts get broken and we all make mistakes. Some we can never hope to see fixed but we try and try to do so. Someday when I leave this life and follow many others, I hope and pray that my days here have been more good then bad. I hope that I have lifted where I stood. I hope that I have given of myself more than I have needed others. I hope that as time will forget me that what I have written and will be writing will endure and that time will find a bit of kindness to let the dusts of time forgive my mistakes.
I hope that my children, even the ones who do not wish to talk to me will learn from what I am writing that I am just human that I too am like them, with all my hopes, dreams and flaws. I know the three little ones only see what they want to see, I am blessed to have them in my life. There is still a part of me that longs to hold all my children at the same time.
Someday…… until then I will keep being true to myself and raising the three little ones the best I can. I am so very blessed, many people never see this point in their life until it is to late……..
Tonight I am missing my mom even though we were not as close as I wanted…..